So I made the appointment when I was about 5 weeks along and they didn't schedule me until now. My first ultrasound wasn't supposed to be until next week. I was kind of disappointed that I wouldn't get to see my baby, or even know if there was one in there, while others got to see their's several times. Whatever. Today makes the wait totally worth it.
We answered the usual family history questions. Peed in a cup to confirm the pregnancy. That was a piece of cake. Hit a small bump with blood being drawn. I am scared to death of needles. I'm talking hyperventilating, crying, no control over my limbs, trying to flee kind of scared. It's an actual honest to god phobia that not many people recognize.
Usually nurses and doctors take offense to my charades, take it to heart and generally get pissed off. How can someone at the age of 26 act like a child of 6 whenever a needle is in the room? Not my nurse today. She figured me out. She understood my irrational fear and got me through it. We talked about how twins run in my family, how we were hoping for one baby, but would be overjoyed at two. Before I knew it, she had drawn 5 viles of blood. It was over. My reward for good behavior? My first peek at the baby!
It was nothing like I imagined it. I've seen lots of ultrasound pictures, heard lots of stories about seeing the baby for the first time, but nothing prepared me for what was on the screen. As I prayed and prayed that something was in that egg, a little shadow of a baby appeared. My husband saw the flicker of the heartbeat first. What an amazing moment. It just hits you that there is something actually living inside of you. My heart allows it's heart to beat! I shifted my weight a little and all of a sudden the little gummy bear shape started shaking it's arms and legs and bouncing up and down rapidly. I swear at this point I can see a definition of anose, but the tech just says I have a vivd imagination. I think that with my husband and my huge honkers, it would have been one of the first things to develop! ;)
So here are the pics:
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